blog #21 - story time!

The world around her felt as if it was at a standstill. The rotation on the axis has taken a complete stop as the seasons met a crossroads. There was still snow on the ground, but those small piles of white were not fluffy, but rather hard and rigid amongst the greenest water doused grasses. It was the dawn of spring, the days grew longer, but it nothing was moving. Jasey was walking down her driveway as day blended into night. The horizon littered by mountains was black and blue, almost as a reminder, just like everything was. Jasey's long strawberry blonde hair blew in the last bit of the winter winds blowing through Colorado, she hated garbage duty. She heaved the giant black garbage bag out to the sidewalk. She looked up the street, it was empty, the only thing that stood out in her vision was the streetlights that drenched the puddles on the sidewalk. Jasey breathed out and a she could see her breathe form on the wind. It was a regretfull sigh, she knew who was behind her.
"Ben..." she began to say as she turned around before she was interuppted.
"J, will you just listen to me? Just for one second, your'e not returning my calls or texts. You've been avoiding me at school. I just want to talk." said Ben standing before her. She was always so mezmerized whenever he talked to her, whenever he looked her in the eyes and spoke with that deep flowing melodic voice. He was flawless in her eyes, and she was sure every other girls. I mean he was Ben. He stood there with his statuesque figure and messy head of curling brown locks underneath the silly knitted ski hat he always wore. He wore what every other boy wore, the same dark wash jeans and North Face jacket, but he carried it off with more of a grace then the others did. He was Ben of course, the same Ben who's peircing mahogany eyes were pearing at me, begging my ears to listen.
"Ben, I'm sorry I couldn't make it, I really am. But that night is etched into my brain, I can't just forget and pretend everythings okay. Now, I have bigger things to worry about." said Jasey lying. She was always a brilliant liar.
"You havn't even given me a chance to apologize..." he said looking at the concrete.
Jasey didn't know what to say. She felt as if everything she had done was a mistake. She said it, but she never actually believed in it, and she hated doubting herself. She lifted the trash bag into the black trash can and felt a familar grip on her hand. She looked back into the eyes she had been trying to avoid.
"For everything, I'm sorry. For leaving like that, for lying, for pretending. If I could take it all back, I..." he said pausing for a second, "I wouldn't take it back. It was meant to happen J, destiny. What happened on that mountain, the four of us, it was meant to happen." he said like he knew all the right answers. In that instant, Jasey knew that the boy she loved all along, the boy she wished she could trust, the boy who was worth all the pain, didn't know her much at all. She had lost something on that mountain, she could never get it back, and he acted like we all just had to move on.
"We left someone on that mountain Ben. I think about her everyday. I think about everything I lost up there everyday, every moment, every second of my existence, I think. I can't go back, I know, but it wasn't destiny. It was all a horrible mistake." said Jasey her voice shaking, pushing back reality and drifting into the fiction she had been telling herself.
"Jasey, everyone came down from that mountain. I mean, we lost things, but not people, all four of us came down." he said gripping her shoulders turning her so she'd look at him. "Jasey, I meant what I said." he said that boyish grin plastered across his face, she could do nothing but reach up and smooth over those cheeks.
"We did lose someone, I lost myself to the mountain Ben, and I can never get it back." she said her thumb smoothing over his cold skin.
"J, I know what else happened up there." he said looking down at the ground as if he just told a huge secret. "It was an accident J, it's not your fault." he finished his arms wrapping around her waist and pulling her into a hug. Suddenly, Jasey felt a huge pang in her stomach. It wasn't an accident, she had done it on purpose. Ice cold blood was on her hands.
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lol i suck at writing stories, but seriously nothing went on in this story, so i wrote a random story :] hahah i suck