blog #14

I seriously have no idea what is going on in my life right now. All I know is my new, "hard working" attitude is getting me better grades in school. Thank God, I need to get an A in the easy classes I currently have. Seriously, my school day is a blow off, basically I just chill all day. Chem is a laugh, even though its balls hard, German is funny as always and I do well, Comp 11A is a HUGE waste of time, but i love the arguements and discussions. Math is gay. I hate it and the fact that my lunch is now switched, but i think it's for the best, now I can chill and might actually concentrate, and my friends will occasionally be in my lunch :] Vertebrates is awesome, it is currently the only class i go to school for and AP Gov is a waste of time. But i love the people in it and the weird shit we do.

It's 9 at night and I do not want to do my homework, or as I like to call it, homo-work. I'm on my second cup of coffee, mostly because I refuse to fall asleep without finishing it today and I have a shit load to do. God I love caffiene. I've been craving everything that is unproductive and bad for me.

1. Sugar
2. Caffiene
3. Smoke (of all kinds, I just want like firework smoke or incents or candles or something)
4. No sleep
5. Rock music
6. Kissing cute boys whom I will never love.


haha. I'm bad, but I love all of the bad things that are fueling me lately. It's chilled me out, the artificial remedies, the self medication, the modern chemistry. Tyelonol is my best friend and Nyquil is the only reason I'm sleeping at night. And like I'm not depressed or anything, like I'm just happy, nothing is bad or good, just like there. I'm glad I've been getting progressively busier, I feel like my life is fuller when I'm more busy. I love the babysitting jobs and the volunteer work. It makes me feel good, makes me feel young again and I'll always have Friday nights and Saturdays with my best friends. Insert super smiley face. I had a terrible headache today, that made me skip out on rehersal and German club was canceled, insert frowny face. I was actually looking forward to it, but whatevs. I went home and slept and watched 2 episodes of Scrubs, then some NCIS. Quality. List time!

10 Things I've Learned To Appreciate:
1. Coffee makers
2. Cold air
3. Windows
4. Smiles
5. Soffee shorts
6. Gym memberships
7. Red nail polish
8. Disney movies
9. Alone time
10. Keeping things to myself

10 Things I Would Like To Find Time To Do:
1. Do pre trip questions
2. Learn how to make some awesome pasta/curry
3. Read some of the books Becca gave me
4. Eat breakfast
5. Sleep
6. Buy an ACT prep book
7. Do some AP gov practice stuff
8. Go to the gym
9. Watch the news
10. Clean mirror