blog #13

Recaps:

Saturday:: Can drive in the morning, very fun/awkward experiences with Will and Becca, yet fun. Then I came home and basically nothing happened. Period. It was so so boring, that I went for a very very long walk with my dog and listened to my ipod so loud that I didn't hear when Will called me. Then Paige and Will in the midst of commiting grand theft auto came and picked me up and took me home. Good thing because I was tired and misreable. My mom got chinese. Yummy, then I went to Melissa's with Dalton and people I don't know. Almost lost my shoe in a puddle of snow. Thank God it was only water not mud. Then i proceeded to run around in just my sopping wet socks all the way to Hungry Howies, because A) it felt good and B) it made me get to warm faster. Then we played guitar hero and I went home. lol Odd boring drifting day, it reminded me of summer in an odd way.

Sunday: I woke up, and my cousin was randomly here. So we went to the village, then caribou and then came back and read magazines and played rock band. It was nice to just chill out with family for a day. I hardly ever get those. She was in between swim meets, I hope she did well.

end of recap.


So yah. I have a craving to spend more time outside. It's kind of bad because the weather sort of sucks balls. But I love the transition. During my misreable sad walk with my dog, of course I composed so much poetry in my head that it would be a waste to write it down. Sometimes certain things should stay in one's head and heart, it makes them more special that way, more exclusive. A secret to ones self. I've been keeping these secrets lately, and I love it.

Also, I opened my window today. Because a) I have a weird stench in my room (its the smell of mixing perfumes, smoke, incents, candles, and hair straighteners, yes EW) and b) because the crisp air feels so nice. It's like I missed out on this during the fall. Seriously, all I want to do is go on a walk. It's kind of crazy how driving has made me miss out on so much, yet it has made my world bigger. I love it, but hate it at the same time.

But like I'm not just at a crossroads, the world is! It's great, I've never felt so alone, but I've never felt so alive. I can be as open and as closed as I want. There's always an in between, I just figured that. It's great, the weather can't make up it's mind, and neither can I. I'm just going to go with the flow and enjoy it rather than fight it. Or at least I'll try. Letting go of ones former flaws is hard, but I'll give it my best shot.

I still havn't done my homework.... but here's a list!

16 Things To Do When The Weather Is Indescisive:
1. Go for a walk
2. Drive anywhere with the windows down
3. Open your window of your room
4. Rock out to Aerosmith by yourself
5. Paint your nails
6. Change your sheets
7. Clean your boots
8. Hang up clothes
9. Talk with family
10. Don't talk at all, take a friggin nap
11. Surf the web
12. Eat super sugary cereal
13. Heat up left overs and share them with someone you havn't talked with in awhile
14. Make someone a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, it will suprise them and make them happy :]
15. Don't brush you hair, its a serious waste of time.
16. Day dream


Oh yah and if anyone wants to suprise me and make me PB&J, I'd love them forever, and I'd smile for a long time :]