blog #11

I don't exactly know how to describe today. Whole. Today was whole. School was well school, and after with Aimee and Dalton was fun. It was a different kind of fun though. It was chill, I wasn't my usual hyper self at most times today, I was really at peace with the world. Mostly because I have no homework and everything is in balance. It's a nice feeling, but its also a very numb feeling. I hate feeling numb, but I'm learning that's what inner peace is. The feeling that all of your problems are miniscule and will go away eventually. It's nice not to have the feeling that I'm constantly struggling, but I miss the struggle? If that makes any sense. I feel like I enjoy feeling unreasonably happy and not knowing what's going to happen next. I live for the suspense, the cliffhangers and I've come to a sad realization. Conversations will be happening.

Just FYI, I love having deep talks about the world and stereotypes and racism with Dalton and Aimee. It makes me feel intelligent and I love hearing opionions of others, some people I love to chat like that with, and I could for hours, just because they spark my imagination. I adore it.

I think I might start a new tradition, I'll analyze a song every Thursday or tell you how it relates to me at the moment. Be ready.

I finnaly figured out how I feel. I'm comfortably numb.