blog #7

So here's a breakdown of my day before i get into my deeper thoughts:
I got a new lab partner in Chemistry :]
Hung out with Jordan (cool kid) in German
Sat on the floor and chatted in English
Got made fun of constantly at lunch
Watched turtles try to escape in Vertebrates
Played a very hardcore game of monopoly in AP gov.

Yah I know, monopoly in an advanced placement government class. awesome. well i'm pretty much loosing that game since i've been to jail (in the game) for times and barely got or lost any money. Then after school I grabbed coffee with Aimee & Dalton, and then they came over so i could do my homework and we kinda just hung out, fun times actually.

Now to my deeper thoughts. For once in my life, I have truly learned from my past. I used to just disregard all my mistakes and experiences but now I actually learned. It's a great feeling, feeling this happy and carefree. I'm finnaly upholding my actual responsibilities and not worrying about dumb things that won't matter in a few years. Like I feel centered, if that's weird to say. I just hate how people don't see that I've grown up from the past and can handle things right now. I mean, I'm more comfortable saying what I want and what I don't want and avoiding things that I know will make me do things I don't want. It's just fustrating when other people doubt that your'e on the same page as them. I mean, I'm a big girl now, I've learned so much, and I can handle my emotions and urges and the things I say. I know who to trust with what and when. More importantly I know who I can't trust. I know who plays games, and I know when to play them.

All in all. I'm not going to be played. I'm not going to be the one to fall. I'm not going to mess anything up by doing anything I ever did in the past. I'm going to be the happy blessed person I know I am. And do things for me now. I'm determined to turn over a new leaf, and goddamnit I have. So please, seriously don't mess this up for me by assuming things. Now on to today's list...

Top 5 Reasons Why I'm Currently Enjoying the Cold Weather:
1. Scarves
2. Hoodies
3. Being able to see your breath outside
4. Having a legit excuse to drink scalding hot coffee
5. Snowboarding