30 Things To Do When You're Technically Under House Arrest Because You Hit Your Dad's Car, Got Bad Grades On Your Report Card, and Your'e Parents Are Going Out Drinking Somewhere In Detroit:
1. Paint my nails.
2. Rent a movie on demand
3. Clean my room
4. Clean out my cabinets
5. Visit Becca at work, cause she works where the pizza your supposed to buy is
6. Practice playing pool
7. Learn to play Halo so you don't suck
8. Cover songs on your little plastic tamborine
9. Pretend your'e a rockstar.
10. Make coffee, drink entire pot on your own
11. Read
12. Homework, I guess
13. Try not to complain via text, call or IM to your friends who's parents let them live their lives.
14. Study the dictionary
15. Actually read your AP gov prep book you bought
16. Learn to cook something that will make people say, "Yumm, that Sally is a good cook" even when you know you suck at cooking, because the time you tried to make clam chowder you adde cinnamon.
17. Come to the conclusion, that cinnamon does not go with clam chowder.
18. Hide the cinnamon
19. Sleep
20. Float around the internet aimlessly
21. Try to save panda.
22. Probably fail at the panda game.
23. Dance, the amanda dance if fustrated.
24. Wish you were anywhere but here.
25. Wish you were with anyone but yourself
26. Curl your hair
27. Straighten your hair.
28. Attempt to play your brothers guitar
29. Eat your feelings
30. Attempt to not go crazy
Saturday, January 31, 2009
saturday morning commute
its 11:30 am and im seated next to unsuspection
bottled blonds and slicked back smiles
i can barely hit 35 on this narrow road
but i speed down the straightaway to make you go away
to get of my bumper, and out of my heart
and when my eyes shoot to the rearview mirror you're gone
i want more then just a parking pass hanging, i want a kaldiscope on my dashboard
a circus i created with my own hands
its saturday morning and i should be sleeping
but im commuting like the rest of the lost souls
just thinking, just thinking
about how fucked up i've made myself
and how i love the mayhem but wish for more time
to say the things that are on my mind
t minus 5 months til take off
to this suicide mission, where i can only come back different
and we all want change, thats what we voted for
but all the stains on stomachs and ink on arms has me wishing for something less permanent
something i can just wash off when im done
but it doesnt work like that
and baby we're dealing in big lies now
it doesnt hurt, i wont cry, its over
and the numb feeling doesnt make me want to die
ill try harder, i promise, im sorry, your forgiven
its broken its fixed
baby your the police man and this is cardiac arrest.
bottled blonds and slicked back smiles
i can barely hit 35 on this narrow road
but i speed down the straightaway to make you go away
to get of my bumper, and out of my heart
and when my eyes shoot to the rearview mirror you're gone
i want more then just a parking pass hanging, i want a kaldiscope on my dashboard
a circus i created with my own hands
its saturday morning and i should be sleeping
but im commuting like the rest of the lost souls
just thinking, just thinking
about how fucked up i've made myself
and how i love the mayhem but wish for more time
to say the things that are on my mind
t minus 5 months til take off
to this suicide mission, where i can only come back different
and we all want change, thats what we voted for
but all the stains on stomachs and ink on arms has me wishing for something less permanent
something i can just wash off when im done
but it doesnt work like that
and baby we're dealing in big lies now
it doesnt hurt, i wont cry, its over
and the numb feeling doesnt make me want to die
ill try harder, i promise, im sorry, your forgiven
its broken its fixed
baby your the police man and this is cardiac arrest.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
blog #9
well, nothing is new really. I skipped school yesterday because I honestly just couldn't sit through another boring day of that shit. So I slept, watched pointless TV, did some homework and blah. Well I had rehersal on Monday, that was cool. I honestly like the song. I went to school today and I could not help but feel like I had a giant cloud over my head. I don't know why I feel so down at all, but like I feel a bit lonely, I'm kind of okay with it cause I know I'm just in a funk, but whatever.
I really like this paper I wrote for my comp class, I don't know why but it reads almost lyrically and I like it that way. Of course it's supposed to have dialouge and what not, but I don't write like that and I tend to stay true to myself. So thats pretty much it of that.
I just need to clear my fucking head, the thing is I don't know what to clear it of. Like I've slept a ton, took my meds like a good little girl, did my homework, been responsible, but i still feel like something is just missing...
It's a fucking weird feeling, seriously, especially since nothing is missing that I know of. I'm just weird, anyways.
I'm happy for the weekend, like really happy for it, because that means sleeping and hanging out and being lazy and I like that :]
I really like this paper I wrote for my comp class, I don't know why but it reads almost lyrically and I like it that way. Of course it's supposed to have dialouge and what not, but I don't write like that and I tend to stay true to myself. So thats pretty much it of that.
I just need to clear my fucking head, the thing is I don't know what to clear it of. Like I've slept a ton, took my meds like a good little girl, did my homework, been responsible, but i still feel like something is just missing...
It's a fucking weird feeling, seriously, especially since nothing is missing that I know of. I'm just weird, anyways.
I'm happy for the weekend, like really happy for it, because that means sleeping and hanging out and being lazy and I like that :]
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
advice
As I look back at my mistakes, I found out that I need to put all the advice and all the lessons I've learned down into a written form. So here it is.
Don't let anyone tell you your'e not good enough, beautiful enough, smart enough or strong enough. If you want something, I mean really want something, you will put your entire heart and soul into it. And that is worth everything, and if you are willing to devote time to something or someone or some dream, that it is worth it, and don't let anyone else tell you otherwise.
Don't be afraid to fall in love. With a person, an event, a scene, an object, a dream, a fantasy, an idea. Fall in love with it! Embrace every second of it and don't be afraid to give your heart away to it, if you truly love something then if you hold back you will never completely feel real. So if you love a sport, don't quit because it's too hard, if you love singing or writing or poetry, don't stop because you think you're not good enough, if you love someone, don't stop just because things are complicated. Work through it all. Because I know that if you truly fall in love with anything, you are willing to make every sacrifice for it.
Stop listening to the haters. Seriously? Who cares if others think your an idoit, or your wasting your time. You are happy, and when you're happy, noone should ever want to take that away from you. Perhaps they are jealous, perhaps they are ignorant, perhaps they really are looking out for you. But in the end, those people can't control you, only you can, and if you want to stop you will, but at the moment if its what you want to do, do it! Don't listen to the negative.
Never be afraid to say you like something. Say your'e with people you know are not into the music you like, do NOT fake it! In the end, people will respect you being yourself and not pretending to like something when you don't. And you will too when you arn't forced to say you love T-Pain when you think it is literally audible dirt, or no I really don't care that you don't like Fall Out Boy, I DO, so deal with it and don't put me down because I like things you don't. It's my opinion.
Work hard. Really, if you don't work hard at the things that are "important" to you in your life, than are they really that important? If you're friends are important and you don't work at bettering your relationships and keeping in touch, then are they really important to you? If school is important than why not put time into it? If a relationship is important to you, then why not work at it?
Surround yourself with people who make you smile, because at the end of your life span, those smile lines that have conjured around your face will be your best feature, not your hair or your eyes. People will remember your smile.
Laugh, regardless of what you're laughing at. Laughing not only burns calories, but it makes you feel invinceable.
Brave the weather. Don't let the weather keep you from doing something you want. Fuck the cold or the heat. Shivering and sweating is part of life. And I promise you, you will be dissapointed that you didn't build that snowman or take that walk because it was too cold.
Respect yourself, if you don't want to do something or act a certain way, don't noone is forcing you too, and if they are, I suggest you leave because these people are not respecting you.
The only person's expectations you need to live up to are yours.
Go out, drive around with the windows down, talk about the most random topics and come home late to curfew. Trust me, it will transform any boring Saturday night into a night you'll never forget.
Talk! So what if what you want to talk about is deamed inappropriete or stupid or random or even off topic, say what's on your mind. From experience being quiet and keeping your ideas inside, will hold you back more then move you forward. Be the person who always has something to say regardless, not many people remember the quiet kids.
Keep your head up, you have no idea what your'e missing looking at your feet.
If people laugh at your dreams and ideas, laugh back, not because its funny, but because they have no idea how great you could be.
Kiss, hug, poke, feel, TOUCH! The saddest thing about American society is the lack of closeness, and a simple touch brings people just a little bit closer, makes things just a little bit more personal. A hug can change someones perspective on the day.
You are NOT hopeless. Because even if they don't, I believe in you. Put your heart into it, and anything is possible.
Don't let anyone tell you your'e not good enough, beautiful enough, smart enough or strong enough. If you want something, I mean really want something, you will put your entire heart and soul into it. And that is worth everything, and if you are willing to devote time to something or someone or some dream, that it is worth it, and don't let anyone else tell you otherwise.
Don't be afraid to fall in love. With a person, an event, a scene, an object, a dream, a fantasy, an idea. Fall in love with it! Embrace every second of it and don't be afraid to give your heart away to it, if you truly love something then if you hold back you will never completely feel real. So if you love a sport, don't quit because it's too hard, if you love singing or writing or poetry, don't stop because you think you're not good enough, if you love someone, don't stop just because things are complicated. Work through it all. Because I know that if you truly fall in love with anything, you are willing to make every sacrifice for it.
Stop listening to the haters. Seriously? Who cares if others think your an idoit, or your wasting your time. You are happy, and when you're happy, noone should ever want to take that away from you. Perhaps they are jealous, perhaps they are ignorant, perhaps they really are looking out for you. But in the end, those people can't control you, only you can, and if you want to stop you will, but at the moment if its what you want to do, do it! Don't listen to the negative.
Never be afraid to say you like something. Say your'e with people you know are not into the music you like, do NOT fake it! In the end, people will respect you being yourself and not pretending to like something when you don't. And you will too when you arn't forced to say you love T-Pain when you think it is literally audible dirt, or no I really don't care that you don't like Fall Out Boy, I DO, so deal with it and don't put me down because I like things you don't. It's my opinion.
Work hard. Really, if you don't work hard at the things that are "important" to you in your life, than are they really that important? If you're friends are important and you don't work at bettering your relationships and keeping in touch, then are they really important to you? If school is important than why not put time into it? If a relationship is important to you, then why not work at it?
Surround yourself with people who make you smile, because at the end of your life span, those smile lines that have conjured around your face will be your best feature, not your hair or your eyes. People will remember your smile.
Laugh, regardless of what you're laughing at. Laughing not only burns calories, but it makes you feel invinceable.
Brave the weather. Don't let the weather keep you from doing something you want. Fuck the cold or the heat. Shivering and sweating is part of life. And I promise you, you will be dissapointed that you didn't build that snowman or take that walk because it was too cold.
Respect yourself, if you don't want to do something or act a certain way, don't noone is forcing you too, and if they are, I suggest you leave because these people are not respecting you.
The only person's expectations you need to live up to are yours.
Go out, drive around with the windows down, talk about the most random topics and come home late to curfew. Trust me, it will transform any boring Saturday night into a night you'll never forget.
Talk! So what if what you want to talk about is deamed inappropriete or stupid or random or even off topic, say what's on your mind. From experience being quiet and keeping your ideas inside, will hold you back more then move you forward. Be the person who always has something to say regardless, not many people remember the quiet kids.
Keep your head up, you have no idea what your'e missing looking at your feet.
If people laugh at your dreams and ideas, laugh back, not because its funny, but because they have no idea how great you could be.
Kiss, hug, poke, feel, TOUCH! The saddest thing about American society is the lack of closeness, and a simple touch brings people just a little bit closer, makes things just a little bit more personal. A hug can change someones perspective on the day.
You are NOT hopeless. Because even if they don't, I believe in you. Put your heart into it, and anything is possible.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
blog #8
hEY! I was super tired last night so i didnt update. SORRY!
well yesterday at school, it was pretty normal, we made banananimals in vertebreates. its like the second day and i'm already deeply in love with that class its almost sad. and in AP gov we continued our epic game of monopoly and i finnally got a property! conneticut avenue bitchessss
then after school, i went to daltons and watched everyone play video games then tried to play halo, but failed. then dinner with my mommy at olive garden, filled with interesting convo i'm sure. then to matt's house, where ryan proceeded to break a couch. wowsaz. afterwards i was dead tired, so then dalton drove me home where i proceeded to pass out when i came in the door.
Today I want to go see Gran Torino, but I might have to go to a dinner party in Roseville, and I don't want to go for several obvious reasons. So yah.
So here's some lists, because they are obviously better than my scatter brained recollection of the happenings of my life...
Top 5 Songs Desribing My Mood Currently:
1. Obvious - Hey Monday
2. Hit The Lights - All Time Low
3. Medicine Man - The Hush Sound
4. We've Got A Big Mess On Our Hands - The Academy Is...
5. Hum Hallelujah - Fall Out Boy
Top 11 Bands I Am DYING To See On Warped This Summer:
1. 3OH!3
2. Breathe Carolina
3.Forever The Sickest Kids
4. Hit The Lights
5. Madina Lake
6.Sing It Loud
7. A Rockett To The Moon
8. Nevershoutnever
9. The Maine
10. The White Tie Affair
11. Lights
Top5 Quotes I Love At The Moment:
1. "I've done everything but die" - Patrick Stump
2. "Today I saw cancer, cigarettes, and shortness of breath. This is why I walk to the ocean, swim with sharks and jellyfish. I may never get this chance again. This is why if you want to kiss you should kiss. If you want to cry you should cry, and if you want to live you should live."
3. "So here's to everything coming down to nothing" - Taylor Swift
4. "I'd say it's nice to see you, but I know how you hate dishonesty" - Gossip Girl
5."Whether it's the best of times or the worst of times,
these are your only times, so you better enjoy them."
well yesterday at school, it was pretty normal, we made banananimals in vertebreates. its like the second day and i'm already deeply in love with that class its almost sad. and in AP gov we continued our epic game of monopoly and i finnally got a property! conneticut avenue bitchessss
then after school, i went to daltons and watched everyone play video games then tried to play halo, but failed. then dinner with my mommy at olive garden, filled with interesting convo i'm sure. then to matt's house, where ryan proceeded to break a couch. wowsaz. afterwards i was dead tired, so then dalton drove me home where i proceeded to pass out when i came in the door.
Today I want to go see Gran Torino, but I might have to go to a dinner party in Roseville, and I don't want to go for several obvious reasons. So yah.
So here's some lists, because they are obviously better than my scatter brained recollection of the happenings of my life...
Top 5 Songs Desribing My Mood Currently:
1. Obvious - Hey Monday
2. Hit The Lights - All Time Low
3. Medicine Man - The Hush Sound
4. We've Got A Big Mess On Our Hands - The Academy Is...
5. Hum Hallelujah - Fall Out Boy
Top 11 Bands I Am DYING To See On Warped This Summer:
1. 3OH!3
2. Breathe Carolina
3.Forever The Sickest Kids
4. Hit The Lights
5. Madina Lake
6.Sing It Loud
7. A Rockett To The Moon
8. Nevershoutnever
9. The Maine
10. The White Tie Affair
11. Lights
Top5 Quotes I Love At The Moment:
1. "I've done everything but die" - Patrick Stump
2. "Today I saw cancer, cigarettes, and shortness of breath. This is why I walk to the ocean, swim with sharks and jellyfish. I may never get this chance again. This is why if you want to kiss you should kiss. If you want to cry you should cry, and if you want to live you should live."
3. "So here's to everything coming down to nothing" - Taylor Swift
4. "I'd say it's nice to see you, but I know how you hate dishonesty" - Gossip Girl
5."Whether it's the best of times or the worst of times,
these are your only times, so you better enjoy them."
Thursday, January 22, 2009
blog #7
So here's a breakdown of my day before i get into my deeper thoughts:
I got a new lab partner in Chemistry :]
Hung out with Jordan (cool kid) in German
Sat on the floor and chatted in English
Got made fun of constantly at lunch
Watched turtles try to escape in Vertebrates
Played a very hardcore game of monopoly in AP gov.
Yah I know, monopoly in an advanced placement government class. awesome. well i'm pretty much loosing that game since i've been to jail (in the game) for times and barely got or lost any money. Then after school I grabbed coffee with Aimee & Dalton, and then they came over so i could do my homework and we kinda just hung out, fun times actually.
Now to my deeper thoughts. For once in my life, I have truly learned from my past. I used to just disregard all my mistakes and experiences but now I actually learned. It's a great feeling, feeling this happy and carefree. I'm finnaly upholding my actual responsibilities and not worrying about dumb things that won't matter in a few years. Like I feel centered, if that's weird to say. I just hate how people don't see that I've grown up from the past and can handle things right now. I mean, I'm more comfortable saying what I want and what I don't want and avoiding things that I know will make me do things I don't want. It's just fustrating when other people doubt that your'e on the same page as them. I mean, I'm a big girl now, I've learned so much, and I can handle my emotions and urges and the things I say. I know who to trust with what and when. More importantly I know who I can't trust. I know who plays games, and I know when to play them.
All in all. I'm not going to be played. I'm not going to be the one to fall. I'm not going to mess anything up by doing anything I ever did in the past. I'm going to be the happy blessed person I know I am. And do things for me now. I'm determined to turn over a new leaf, and goddamnit I have. So please, seriously don't mess this up for me by assuming things. Now on to today's list...
Top 5 Reasons Why I'm Currently Enjoying the Cold Weather:
1. Scarves
2. Hoodies
3. Being able to see your breath outside
4. Having a legit excuse to drink scalding hot coffee
5. Snowboarding
I got a new lab partner in Chemistry :]
Hung out with Jordan (cool kid) in German
Sat on the floor and chatted in English
Got made fun of constantly at lunch
Watched turtles try to escape in Vertebrates
Played a very hardcore game of monopoly in AP gov.
Yah I know, monopoly in an advanced placement government class. awesome. well i'm pretty much loosing that game since i've been to jail (in the game) for times and barely got or lost any money. Then after school I grabbed coffee with Aimee & Dalton, and then they came over so i could do my homework and we kinda just hung out, fun times actually.
Now to my deeper thoughts. For once in my life, I have truly learned from my past. I used to just disregard all my mistakes and experiences but now I actually learned. It's a great feeling, feeling this happy and carefree. I'm finnaly upholding my actual responsibilities and not worrying about dumb things that won't matter in a few years. Like I feel centered, if that's weird to say. I just hate how people don't see that I've grown up from the past and can handle things right now. I mean, I'm more comfortable saying what I want and what I don't want and avoiding things that I know will make me do things I don't want. It's just fustrating when other people doubt that your'e on the same page as them. I mean, I'm a big girl now, I've learned so much, and I can handle my emotions and urges and the things I say. I know who to trust with what and when. More importantly I know who I can't trust. I know who plays games, and I know when to play them.
All in all. I'm not going to be played. I'm not going to be the one to fall. I'm not going to mess anything up by doing anything I ever did in the past. I'm going to be the happy blessed person I know I am. And do things for me now. I'm determined to turn over a new leaf, and goddamnit I have. So please, seriously don't mess this up for me by assuming things. Now on to today's list...
Top 5 Reasons Why I'm Currently Enjoying the Cold Weather:
1. Scarves
2. Hoodies
3. Being able to see your breath outside
4. Having a legit excuse to drink scalding hot coffee
5. Snowboarding
survey
8 years ago....
The year Jan 2001
1) How old were you?
9
2) Who were you dating?
noone i was nine
3) Where did you work?
noone i was nine
4) Where did you live?
roseville michigan
5) Where did you hang out?
my backyard
because being the rich kids in roseville,
you had a sweet above ground pool, and a pretty tree and a big porch and a deck and a grill and a trampoline :]
all crammed into the smallest backyard ever
6) Did you wear contacts and/or glasses?
nope
7) Who was your best friend?
probably at that time daniel
8) How many tattoos did you have?
none
9) How many piercings did you have?
ears i think?
10) What kind of car did you drive?
i was 9 :]
11) Had you been to a real party?
lol if you count parties at the bowling alley
12) Had you had your heart broken?
nope.
i was the heartbreaker at 9
13) Were you Single/Taken/Married/Divorced?
single, because I was 9
14) Any Kids?
um i was a kid
***4 YEARS AGO ( Jan 2005)***
1) How old were you?
13
2) Who were you dating?
Drew
3) Where did you work at the time?
unemployed
4) Where did you live?
rochester michigan
5) Where did you hang out?
Pine Knob &&& MUSSON
omg so many vivid memories at musson
6) Did you wear contacts and/or glasses?
no
7) Who were your best friend(s)?
Emma Heather, Kenzi and Jill
8) How many tattoos did you have?
none
9) How many piercings did you have?
ears
10) What car did you drive?
zero
11) Had your heart broken?
that year was the first time
12) Were you Single/Taken/Married/Divorced?
taken
13) Any Kids?
noooo
****TODAY (Jan 2009)****
1) Age?
17
2) Where do you work?
nowhere
3) Where do you live?
rochester mi
5) Who are your closest friends?
I have alot
6) Do you talk to your old friends?
no. not really. because i dont like most of them
7) How many piercings do you have?
ears
8) How many tattoos?
none
9) What kind of car do you have?
blue jeep liberty
10) Had your heart been broken?
yep
11) Single/taken/married/divorced/Engaged?
single wooot! :P
12) How many kids?
0
The year Jan 2001
1) How old were you?
9
2) Who were you datin
noone i was nine
3) Where
noone i was nine
4) Where
roseville michigan
5) Where
my backyard
because being the rich kids in roseville,
you had a sweet above ground pool, and a pretty tree and a big porch and a deck and a grill and a trampoline :]
all crammed into the smallest backyard ever
6) Did you wear conta
nope
7) Who was your best frien
probably at that time daniel
8) How many tatto
none
9) How many pierc
ears i think?
10) What kind of car did you drive
i was 9 :]
11) Had you been to a real party
lol if you count parties at the bowling alley
12) Had you had your heart
nope.
i was the heartbreaker at 9
13) Were you Singl
single, because I was 9
14) Any Kids?
um i was a kid
***4 YEARS
1) How old were you?
13
2) Who were you datin
Drew
3) Where
unemployed
4) Where
rochester michigan
5) Where
Pine Knob &&& MUSSON
omg so many vivid memories at musson
6) Did you wear conta
no
7) Who were your best frien
Emma Heather, Kenzi and Jill
8) How many tatto
none
9) How many pierc
ears
10) What car did you drive
zero
11) Had your heart
that year was the first time
12) Were you Singl
taken
13) Any Kids?
noooo
****TODAY
1) Age?
17
2) Where
nowhere
3) Where
rochester mi
5) Who are your close
I have alot
6) Do you talk to your old frien
no. not really. because i dont like most of them
7) How many pierc
ears
8) How many tatto
none
9) What kind of car do you have?
blue jeep liberty
10) Had your heart
yep
11) Singl
single wooot! :P
12) How many kids?
0
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
blog #6
My day in list form, (because thats what I do.) (in series of sixes?)
Schedule:
1. Chemistry - Domanski
2. German - Barner
3. Comp 11 A - Lovalvo
4. Adv. Algebra - Latham
5. Vertebrates - Wieten
6. AP Gov - Macfarland
Best Thing About Each Class:
1. Ryan, Ali, Cassy, Alese, Natasha, Mr. Domanski && mole bucks :]
2. Frau Barner, Jen, Janna, Justin, and just because it's German
3. Discussions. Mr Lovalvo likes to talk, and I'm very opinionated so it works.
4. LUNCH! best thing ever :]
5. Mr. Wieten is awesome and Jen & Mel are awesome too
6. Blow off class
Worst Thing About Each Class:
1. Failing/Ryan
2. I miss my old class and Jenny & Becca
3. Mr. Lovalvo apparently calls home if you write a paper on a real topic that is disturbing
4. Math, and having 3rd lunch on test days
5. Cliquey people
6. None of my friends are in that class, so I need to buck up and make new friends.
Things To Do:
1. Chemistry homework
2. Cash checks
3. Get free coffee before the coupon runs out
4. Pick out outfit for tommarow
5. Clean a little bit
6. Perhaps try my hand at poetry again
Things I Want To Do:
1. Go to Caribou
2. Get my free coffee
3. Not do homework
4. Use this random pent up energy inside of me
5. Go to the Y later.
6. Sleep :]
Top 6 Songs That I Am Currently In Hot Sexy Love With:
1. Count it! -- Hit The Lights
2. How in the Wolrd -- Family Force 5
3. It Had to Be You -- Motion City Soundtrack
4. Shameless -- All Time Low
5. Radiator -- Family Force 5
6. Stay Awake -- All Time Low
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Okay so now for a real summary of my day. Well it was the start of a new semester, and I like all my classes, its just an odd thing to get used to, so that might take awhile, I'll probably be feeling a little wierd and like everything is new for a few weeks. I need to relax for awhile. I came home, and got a new phone :] I love it, it's an envy and has an awesome keyboard and is loud and matches my ipod and camera. Then I got money for my birthday (see below post) from my grandparents. I am currently procrastinating doing chemistry by listening to All Time Low. I really would like to see Gran Torino this weekend, and go shopping, and just hang out around town. Possibly a show at the factory? Who knows. but god I'm loving life right now, even though its hard and annoying and alot of problems in it, I'm just enjoying the good things at the moment. It's great that I feel this happy, I havn't been like this in months.
Schedule:
1. Chemistry - Domanski
2. German - Barner
3. Comp 11 A - Lovalvo
4. Adv. Algebra - Latham
5. Vertebrates - Wieten
6. AP Gov - Macfarland
Best Thing About Each Class:
1. Ryan, Ali, Cassy, Alese, Natasha, Mr. Domanski && mole bucks :]
2. Frau Barner, Jen, Janna, Justin, and just because it's German
3. Discussions. Mr Lovalvo likes to talk, and I'm very opinionated so it works.
4. LUNCH! best thing ever :]
5. Mr. Wieten is awesome and Jen & Mel are awesome too
6. Blow off class
Worst Thing About Each Class:
1. Failing/Ryan
2. I miss my old class and Jenny & Becca
3. Mr. Lovalvo apparently calls home if you write a paper on a real topic that is disturbing
4. Math, and having 3rd lunch on test days
5. Cliquey people
6. None of my friends are in that class, so I need to buck up and make new friends.
Things To Do:
1. Chemistry homework
2. Cash checks
3. Get free coffee before the coupon runs out
4. Pick out outfit for tommarow
5. Clean a little bit
6. Perhaps try my hand at poetry again
Things I Want To Do:
1. Go to Caribou
2. Get my free coffee
3. Not do homework
4. Use this random pent up energy inside of me
5. Go to the Y later.
6. Sleep :]
Top 6 Songs That I Am Currently In Hot Sexy Love With:
1. Count it! -- Hit The Lights
2. How in the Wolrd -- Family Force 5
3. It Had to Be You -- Motion City Soundtrack
4. Shameless -- All Time Low
5. Radiator -- Family Force 5
6. Stay Awake -- All Time Low
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Okay so now for a real summary of my day. Well it was the start of a new semester, and I like all my classes, its just an odd thing to get used to, so that might take awhile, I'll probably be feeling a little wierd and like everything is new for a few weeks. I need to relax for awhile. I came home, and got a new phone :] I love it, it's an envy and has an awesome keyboard and is loud and matches my ipod and camera. Then I got money for my birthday (see below post) from my grandparents. I am currently procrastinating doing chemistry by listening to All Time Low. I really would like to see Gran Torino this weekend, and go shopping, and just hang out around town. Possibly a show at the factory? Who knows. but god I'm loving life right now, even though its hard and annoying and alot of problems in it, I'm just enjoying the good things at the moment. It's great that I feel this happy, I havn't been like this in months.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
blog #6 -- birthday edition
YAY!
it's my birthday and at 4: 21 am i turned seventeen years old
well, i usually say i don't feel different, but this year that is a complete lie.
I feel so different in so many ways, and i feel like i've learned so much during my 16th year that my 17th will be better.
Anyways i triumphantly defeated my AP gov and debate exams today :]
then my lovely friends came over and shared so giggles with me
alot of rockband and ping pong and pool and cake and laughs
i love my friends :]
will and becca made me a cake and that pretty much brightened my day
how can i say that people don't care about me when i'm surrounded by these amazing people who make me smile and enjoy the silliest things in life.
this may sound extremely corny but i am truly blessed.
my mom made my favorite dinner, stuffed peppers. yumm
and then proceeded to give me $100.
not to shabby :] and god knows I needed the money to fuel my shopping addiction.
not to mention i'm in the midst of reading "confessions of a shopaholic" darling little book
plus i feel the need to hole myself up in some little cafe (aka caribou haha) and read that book til i'm so bored i fall asleep.
anyways, i have a lists to make! check em' out
17 things I'm excited about doing while I'm 17
1. Driving past midnight (because the shows i like to go to last til 1 and i get the jitters driving past curfew, yes im a dork)
2. Alternative Press Tour (because i want to see if Nick remembers me!)
3. Rated R movies (because now i wont have to beg my mom to fandango my ticket for pineapple express)
4. Damn Yankees (i know i havnt been to any rehersals yet, but i really feel like i'll be more involved in this musical, plus im an upper classmen, which rocks)
5. Germany (yah i know its not number one, but its so far away that it's not real to me yet. still im excited to party it up and discover a new culture and myself)
6. Hawaii (because i want a tan, so so so bad)
7. Warped Tour 2009 (because since i'm now a warped vet, i know to bring boys to carry my stuff while i crowd surf)
8. Senior year of swim (because i've waited for years for the oppurtunity to be one of Timo's favorites and to be in the upper lanes despite my lack of speed)
9. Summer in general (because 08' was a blast, 09' should just take it up a notch)
10. Senior year! (starts when i'm 17!)
11. Not Homecoming (because i've learned from 3 years of sucky ones. i'm not driving, im not wearing black, i'll go with someone if they are serious and im finnaly getting my fucking hair done)
12. Chicago (because i'll be a senior and german club will just be BOSS!)
13. Halloween (because i know what i should be!)
14. County Meet (because fuck it if i don't make it, i'm going to be obnoxious and support my team)
15. League Meet (because I will finnaly make it back to finals, i'm determined)
16. Blue Mountaion with Aimee (because I love her)
17. Having the song "Seventeen Forever" finnally apply to me
it's my birthday and at 4: 21 am i turned seventeen years old
well, i usually say i don't feel different, but this year that is a complete lie.
I feel so different in so many ways, and i feel like i've learned so much during my 16th year that my 17th will be better.
Anyways i triumphantly defeated my AP gov and debate exams today :]
then my lovely friends came over and shared so giggles with me
alot of rockband and ping pong and pool and cake and laughs
i love my friends :]
will and becca made me a cake and that pretty much brightened my day
how can i say that people don't care about me when i'm surrounded by these amazing people who make me smile and enjoy the silliest things in life.
this may sound extremely corny but i am truly blessed.
my mom made my favorite dinner, stuffed peppers. yumm
and then proceeded to give me $100.
not to shabby :] and god knows I needed the money to fuel my shopping addiction.
not to mention i'm in the midst of reading "confessions of a shopaholic" darling little book
plus i feel the need to hole myself up in some little cafe (aka caribou haha) and read that book til i'm so bored i fall asleep.
anyways, i have a lists to make! check em' out
17 things I'm excited about doing while I'm 17
1. Driving past midnight (because the shows i like to go to last til 1 and i get the jitters driving past curfew, yes im a dork)
2. Alternative Press Tour (because i want to see if Nick remembers me!)
3. Rated R movies (because now i wont have to beg my mom to fandango my ticket for pineapple express)
4. Damn Yankees (i know i havnt been to any rehersals yet, but i really feel like i'll be more involved in this musical, plus im an upper classmen, which rocks)
5. Germany (yah i know its not number one, but its so far away that it's not real to me yet. still im excited to party it up and discover a new culture and myself)
6. Hawaii (because i want a tan, so so so bad)
7. Warped Tour 2009 (because since i'm now a warped vet, i know to bring boys to carry my stuff while i crowd surf)
8. Senior year of swim (because i've waited for years for the oppurtunity to be one of Timo's favorites and to be in the upper lanes despite my lack of speed)
9. Summer in general (because 08' was a blast, 09' should just take it up a notch)
10. Senior year! (starts when i'm 17!)
11. Not Homecoming (because i've learned from 3 years of sucky ones. i'm not driving, im not wearing black, i'll go with someone if they are serious and im finnaly getting my fucking hair done)
12. Chicago (because i'll be a senior and german club will just be BOSS!)
13. Halloween (because i know what i should be!)
14. County Meet (because fuck it if i don't make it, i'm going to be obnoxious and support my team)
15. League Meet (because I will finnaly make it back to finals, i'm determined)
16. Blue Mountaion with Aimee (because I love her)
17. Having the song "Seventeen Forever" finnally apply to me
Sunday, January 18, 2009
blog #5
i woke up before noon today
enough said right?
well wrong. basically i lazied around my house all day. it's been quite boring in rochester lately
then i went to GLC with erin and erica.
i don't know eric that well, but im starting to like her alot. we both are not big obama fans. at least we can bond over that.
we also met some guys with guitars. they were pretty nice i guess.
and i got a scarve for 3 bucks :] awesome.
anyways. i decided that i should do more lists for your entertainment.
Top 5 Things I Need To Do By Monday Night at 9 pm:
1. Study for my Debate exams
2. Study for my AP Gov exam
3. Clean my room
4. Get over my cold
5. Figure out how to get pictures from my camera onto my computer
Top 10 Things I'd Rather Do Than The Things I Need To Do:
1. Shop
2. Snowboard
3. Just talk with people for hours at Caribou instead of actually studying
4. Sleep
5. Eat outrageously good ice cream
6. Go to a random concert at the factory
7. Walk around some pretty lighted place with my friends
8. Play in the snow, like really play in the snow
9. Finish reading this book
10. Play Rock Band for hours on end with no intention of stopping
Top 5 Songs Currently Flooding My Room:
1. Perfect Teeth - Motion City Soundtrack
2. DRNK TXT RMEO - Gym Class Heroes
3. Radiator - Family Force 5
4. You Left Me - The Maine
5. Rebellion (Lies) - Arcade Fire
16 Things That Are Bugging Me Currently:
1. Being broke
2. Computer viruses
3. Cold viruses
4. Viruses in general.
5. My lack of plaid shirts
6. The fact that I keep gaining weight, no matter what I do
7. The world's obsession with Barack Obama (he's black, he's the president, OKAY WE GET IT!)
8. How I have a perfectly cute and useful purse that I'm not using for no reason in particular.
9. The Shuffle function on my ipod
10. The uncomfortable pillow my Dad gave me
11. Smelly brothers
12. Smelly brothers who steal my shampoo and still remain smelly
13. My bangs that are sticking straight out of my head
14. Dry skin
15. Chapped lips
16. Really really small times new roman font.
6 Things That Will Make All Of That Better:
1. My mom giving me money
2. Snowboarding
3. Better music
4. Chapstick
5. More girly smelling shampoo
6. Air fresherners
enough said right?
well wrong. basically i lazied around my house all day. it's been quite boring in rochester lately
then i went to GLC with erin and erica.
i don't know eric that well, but im starting to like her alot. we both are not big obama fans. at least we can bond over that.
we also met some guys with guitars. they were pretty nice i guess.
and i got a scarve for 3 bucks :] awesome.
anyways. i decided that i should do more lists for your entertainment.
Top 5 Things I Need To Do By Monday Night at 9 pm:
1. Study for my Debate exams
2. Study for my AP Gov exam
3. Clean my room
4. Get over my cold
5. Figure out how to get pictures from my camera onto my computer
Top 10 Things I'd Rather Do Than The Things I Need To Do:
1. Shop
2. Snowboard
3. Just talk with people for hours at Caribou instead of actually studying
4. Sleep
5. Eat outrageously good ice cream
6. Go to a random concert at the factory
7. Walk around some pretty lighted place with my friends
8. Play in the snow, like really play in the snow
9. Finish reading this book
10. Play Rock Band for hours on end with no intention of stopping
Top 5 Songs Currently Flooding My Room:
1. Perfect Teeth - Motion City Soundtrack
2. DRNK TXT RMEO - Gym Class Heroes
3. Radiator - Family Force 5
4. You Left Me - The Maine
5. Rebellion (Lies) - Arcade Fire
16 Things That Are Bugging Me Currently:
1. Being broke
2. Computer viruses
3. Cold viruses
4. Viruses in general.
5. My lack of plaid shirts
6. The fact that I keep gaining weight, no matter what I do
7. The world's obsession with Barack Obama (he's black, he's the president, OKAY WE GET IT!)
8. How I have a perfectly cute and useful purse that I'm not using for no reason in particular.
9. The Shuffle function on my ipod
10. The uncomfortable pillow my Dad gave me
11. Smelly brothers
12. Smelly brothers who steal my shampoo and still remain smelly
13. My bangs that are sticking straight out of my head
14. Dry skin
15. Chapped lips
16. Really really small times new roman font.
6 Things That Will Make All Of That Better:
1. My mom giving me money
2. Snowboarding
3. Better music
4. Chapstick
5. More girly smelling shampoo
6. Air fresherners
Saturday, January 17, 2009
blog #4
sooo today was an extreme waste of time
i took nyquil last night and passed out around 11
then woke up this morning at 1
had my brothers friend make me pancakes yumm :P thanks peter
then i took a shower. had lunch
blah blah blah
cleaned my room blahhh
wasted time. all day long.
i want to watch a movie. i'm thinking of trying to find pineapple express online
anyways
its snowing A TON! outside and my car is buried, so even if i wanted to go anywhere i couldn't :(
but at least that means snowboarding monday will be boss!
anyways. im very into lists atm. so heres a few
Top 8 Songs I Like Right Now:
1. Trouble - nevershoutnever!
2. The Way I Loved You - Taylor Swift
3. Hello Helicopter - Motion City Soundtrack
4. Thinking Of You - Katy Perry
5. Jasey Rae (acoustic) - All Time Low
6. Top Of The World - Pussycat Dolls
7. My President - Young Jeezy ft. Nas
8. White Houses - Vannessa Carlton
5 Things To Do When Snowed In:
1. Grab a microphone and pretend your Hayley Williams/Cassadee Pope/Juliet Simms
2. Curl your hair
3. Try on every outfit in your closet
4. Watch the entire contents of your Tivo
5. Stack things
Things I'm Looking Forward To (in no particular order) :
1. AP Tour 2009
2. Snowboarding
3. Possibly going to Blue Mountain with Aimee
4. Hawaii
5. Germany
6. My Birthday!
Top 5 Lyrics Stuck In My Head:
1. " My President Is Black, My Lambo's Blue
And I Be God Damn If My Rims Aint Too" -- Young Jeezy
2. "Hello helicopter, are you here to stay?" -- Motion City Soundtrack
3. "What you would do if/You were the one/Who was spending the night/Oh I wish that I/Was looking into your eyes" -- Katy perry
4. "I'm in trouble, I'm an addict" -- Nevershoutnever!
5. "Gimee them bright lights, long nights" -- Pussycat Dolls
i took nyquil last night and passed out around 11
then woke up this morning at 1
had my brothers friend make me pancakes yumm :P thanks peter
then i took a shower. had lunch
blah blah blah
cleaned my room blahhh
wasted time. all day long.
i want to watch a movie. i'm thinking of trying to find pineapple express online
anyways
its snowing A TON! outside and my car is buried, so even if i wanted to go anywhere i couldn't :(
but at least that means snowboarding monday will be boss!
anyways. im very into lists atm. so heres a few
Top 8 Songs I Like Right Now:
1. Trouble - nevershoutnever!
2. The Way I Loved You - Taylor Swift
3. Hello Helicopter - Motion City Soundtrack
4. Thinking Of You - Katy Perry
5. Jasey Rae (acoustic) - All Time Low
6. Top Of The World - Pussycat Dolls
7. My President - Young Jeezy ft. Nas
8. White Houses - Vannessa Carlton
5 Things To Do When Snowed In:
1. Grab a microphone and pretend your Hayley Williams/Cassadee Pope/Juliet Simms
2. Curl your hair
3. Try on every outfit in your closet
4. Watch the entire contents of your Tivo
5. Stack things
Things I'm Looking Forward To (in no particular order) :
1. AP Tour 2009
2. Snowboarding
3. Possibly going to Blue Mountain with Aimee
4. Hawaii
5. Germany
6. My Birthday!
Top 5 Lyrics Stuck In My Head:
1. " My President Is Black, My Lambo's Blue
And I Be God Damn If My Rims Aint Too" -- Young Jeezy
2. "Hello helicopter, are you here to stay?" -- Motion City Soundtrack
3. "What you would do if/You were the one/Who was spending the night/Oh I wish that I/Was looking into your eyes" -- Katy perry
4. "I'm in trouble, I'm an addict" -- Nevershoutnever!
5. "Gimee them bright lights, long nights" -- Pussycat Dolls
Friday, January 16, 2009
blog #3
i litterally have not felt this happy in a long long time
i used to be super depressed and think that i was all alone
but im not. not at all.
i have successfully surrounded myself with people who love me and who care about me and i them
i havn't had that since high school started
but i finnaly feel like im where i belong
and its not in anyones arms. its in the hearts of my dearest friends.
anyways enough of my mushy gushy talk.
today i woke up at like 4, mostly because im catching a deathly cold
and i was all ready (haha lie) to take exams. i even showered
then my lovely fellow blonde Danny texted me informing me that we had a 'cold day'
at first, i had the right to be a little pissed. cus i did (n't) study for those exams
then i got online and texting, and realized, this could be potentionally fun
so aimee came over
and after aquiring starbucks and figuring out how to start my car
we were off.
rock band for like 2 hours.
then mac & cheese :]
then more rockband
then the making of cock rock (lmafo)
then the driving to starbucks, again, and listening to the audible pleasures that is cock rock.
it was a great day
and now within like the next 15 mins ill be heading to the movies with steph to see bride wars
perhaps this weekend should be exclusively a girls hang out weekend. ive had enough of guy drama and im pretty much happy where i am at the moment, all though i wouldn't mind minor changes. but i dont want to be exclusive right now. especially with germany coming up
im just living my life (ayay aye aye)
i used to be super depressed and think that i was all alone
but im not. not at all.
i have successfully surrounded myself with people who love me and who care about me and i them
i havn't had that since high school started
but i finnaly feel like im where i belong
and its not in anyones arms. its in the hearts of my dearest friends.
anyways enough of my mushy gushy talk.
today i woke up at like 4, mostly because im catching a deathly cold
and i was all ready (haha lie) to take exams. i even showered
then my lovely fellow blonde Danny texted me informing me that we had a 'cold day'
at first, i had the right to be a little pissed. cus i did (n't) study for those exams
then i got online and texting, and realized, this could be potentionally fun
so aimee came over
and after aquiring starbucks and figuring out how to start my car
we were off.
rock band for like 2 hours.
then mac & cheese :]
then more rockband
then the making of cock rock (lmafo)
then the driving to starbucks, again, and listening to the audible pleasures that is cock rock.
it was a great day
and now within like the next 15 mins ill be heading to the movies with steph to see bride wars
perhaps this weekend should be exclusively a girls hang out weekend. ive had enough of guy drama and im pretty much happy where i am at the moment, all though i wouldn't mind minor changes. but i dont want to be exclusive right now. especially with germany coming up
im just living my life (ayay aye aye)
blog #2
I have not felt this sick in such a long time.
And for once it's not the emotional kind. I'm literally sick.
Like my legs ache, my throat hurts, I'm all stuffy and I can't sleep.
Alright enough complaining. What am I gunna do about it?
Drink orange juice til I puke.
And for once it's not the emotional kind. I'm literally sick.
Like my legs ache, my throat hurts, I'm all stuffy and I can't sleep.
Alright enough complaining. What am I gunna do about it?
Drink orange juice til I puke.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
blog #1
I found the cure for the common cold.
Orange Juice.
I am not entirely sure if its the pure fact that drinking so much OJ will just make you pee out a cure or if the vitamin C in it really has healing properties, but from personal experience. OJ is the answer.
So I've decided to do this. Online diary type thing. Alot of people do it, I won't publicize it I swear, but it will allow me to ramble about a ton of shit (like how OJ is the cure all) without all my friends making me laugh and sound stupid.
Today was exams.
Let me tell you how much I hate exams.
ALOT.
but I do love them at the same time.
I mean, its a half day of school, who could hate that.
but as I was sitting in my Economics class, that lump of nervousness came into my throat.
You know the kind you get before you kiss a cute boy or say something potentially life changing.
I was about to puke my guts out.
I still feel unreasonably sick, (and let me tell you, the news isn't improving)
But this leads me to my conclusion.
Me, looking like a hot mess in baggy sweats and an over sized sweatshirt, drinking a Juno sized gallon of OJ.
I don't have much, but I have vitamin C.
And that my friends, is a pretty good substitute for love money fame and knowledge.
So I'll raise this generic plastic gallon high and toast to you.
We all have our secret saviors.
Orange Juice.
I am not entirely sure if its the pure fact that drinking so much OJ will just make you pee out a cure or if the vitamin C in it really has healing properties, but from personal experience. OJ is the answer.
So I've decided to do this. Online diary type thing. Alot of people do it, I won't publicize it I swear, but it will allow me to ramble about a ton of shit (like how OJ is the cure all) without all my friends making me laugh and sound stupid.
Today was exams.
Let me tell you how much I hate exams.
ALOT.
but I do love them at the same time.
I mean, its a half day of school, who could hate that.
but as I was sitting in my Economics class, that lump of nervousness came into my throat.
You know the kind you get before you kiss a cute boy or say something potentially life changing.
I was about to puke my guts out.
I still feel unreasonably sick, (and let me tell you, the news isn't improving)
But this leads me to my conclusion.
Me, looking like a hot mess in baggy sweats and an over sized sweatshirt, drinking a Juno sized gallon of OJ.
I don't have much, but I have vitamin C.
And that my friends, is a pretty good substitute for love money fame and knowledge.
So I'll raise this generic plastic gallon high and toast to you.
We all have our secret saviors.
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