i thoroughly enjoy this song.

rooney

i don't need your sun anymore

because baby i'm making my own sunshine

and there hasn't been a cloudy day since you've left.

burning man

To go to this festival would be a dream come true.

I've always been fascinated with the desert and the lifestyles that have emerged from the desert.

This festival is really really RADICAL! All of the ideas are just baffling to me, but it's awesome!

The first thing that the community of Black Rock City do that amazed me is a "gifting" economy. Nothing is allowed to be bought or sold or even bartered! It's all about giving without the intent of receiving. This idea is just crazy to me, but it would make for a very interesting week.

The second is the idea of "leaving no trace" and this means, no trash, no ashes, no bodily matter, NOTHING can be left behind. I feel like that would be a major challenge but also an awesome one, if you really think about all of the objects we leave behind when we go to places, it's crazy, so the idea of not leaving any trash or anything of that matter is crazy. It's like you were never even there.

I love the idea of extreme freedom of expression. I love all these ideas but I don't think I'm mentally or physically ready for Burning Man. Maybe one day I will make the pilgrimage to Black Rock City and experience the eye opening world of Burning Man. But for now I can only imagine, take the ideals of the festival with me and dress as I am a participant of the festival itself.

And no, I don't mean crazy costumes, naked-ness, or extreme oddity. I mean embracing cut off shorts, woven vests, denim, rock n' roll t shirts, glitter, feathers, turquoise, leather, aztec prints and anything handmade or vintage.

Something somewhat like Ke$ha wears in the "Your Love is My Drug" video. I feel like that style would go over well at Burning Man.

Something tribal, something glittery, something whimsical and torn. It's a perfect carefree summer look for a girl like me,

who just wants to go and go and go and feel in the moment for as long as she can. Summer is upon us, I need to begin

embracing it.

As for my summer being embraced, I also need to embrace my artistic endeavors and fashion challenges.

Find an aztec print dress/skirt.

Finish an art piece.

Write a poem.

Get tan.

On a commercial, totally typical suburban teenager route, I am waiting for the MTV Movie Awards to start so I can laugh in the

comedy of my favorite comedian of the moment, Aziz Ansari. And because I just love the fashion, the glitz and of course the glamour.

I am old hollywood with a radical brain.

Guten Nacht

nothing profound today.

My summer is getting better.

At first it really sucked but I've come to terms with a lot of things, I'm not going to get a job. I just need to accept it. Stupid economy.

But instead of letting the economy bring me down, I'm going to do a lot of "finding myself" again this summer and music listening, tanning, concert going, being with friends-ing.

It's nice. I like, I like.

Summer is about shedding the weight of the school year right? So that's what I intend on doing. Positive thoughts, positive thoughts.

OH! and a lot more positive lists!

Book Wish List (because I want nothing more than to sit at the pool and read all day)

1. Yoga Anatomy- Leslie Kaminoff

2. Dear John - Nicholas Sparks

3. Burned - P.C Cast

4. Tell All- Chuck Palahniuk

5. Will Grayson, Will Grayson - John Green and David Levithan

and I made a CD, I like it, so here's the track listing. I'm a little all over the place with my music taste, but what sounds good, is danceable, sing-a-long-able (?), and makes me happy is just wonderful to me. I tend to bounce around genre's. Right now I like electronic sounding music, and country, and chill rock (The Black Keys, Vampire Weekend, Muse).

1. Holiday - Vampire Weekend

2. Summer House - Gold Motel (My favorite band of the moment!)

3. King of Anything - Sara Barielles

4. Love Like Woe - The Ready Set

5. You Look Better When I'm Drunk - The White Tie Affair

6. I Bet You Look Good on the Dancefloor - The Arctic Monkeys

7. Whataya Want From Me - Adam Lambert

8. Loser - Beck

9. Billionaire - Travie McCoy (Who is actually doing some awesome things with his solo project)

10. Cooler Than Me - Mike Posner

11. DARE - Gorillaz (James has me hooked on them... don't ask me why I wasn't into them when they were first popular)

12. Gettin' Over You - David Guetta (Justin and I are obsessed)

13. Bulletproof - La Roux

14. OMG (ft. Will I AM) - Usher

15. Be The One - The Ting Tings

16. Water - Brad Paisley

17. Crazy Town - Jason Aldean

18. Pray For You - Jaron and the Long Road to Love (I love the bittersweet lyrics. It's like saying, I really hate you, but I'll say it nicely)

19. Neutron Star Collision (Love is Forever) - Muse (Yes, its from Twilight, but its also MUSE! and I love Muse!)

20. You're So Last Summer - Taking Back Sunday (Oldie, but a goodie)

Well, that's pretty much it for today. I'm headed to a barbeque to get some sun in, then to the drive in with my friends. Craziness and a good time is sure to ensue. Smiles all around. :]

Well hello there stranger....

Wow, it's summer! SUMMER! I haven't even written in this thing since last summer and my oh my is the scenary different.

it's beautiful.

this blog was once a cry out for attention from a sad insecure girl who only wanted stupid silly things.

that girl is gone.

senior year has completely changed who i am as a person, and i really don't feel like going into deep thought about how i've changed, because as i start writing in this more, perhaps you will see a change in me as well.

All the monumental things are over, the germans came and went, i got into college, prom happened, parties happened, turning 18 happened.

So here's a summary, I'm going to Western Michigan University next year. Majoring in who knows what.

Germans, i miss and love them, my life will never be the same.

Parties, they all mash together and just become a blur to me, they aren't really satisfying me anymore.

Prom, awesome, i love my friends, i love dancing, it was everything i wasn't expecting but it was everything i didn't know i wanted.

I graduate high school in seven days. it's a really wonderful feeling, but also extremely unsettling.

I'm ready to move on with my life. High school had it's ups and downs, I'm over it.

Basically my life is a growing list that just keeps going. So here goes....

What I Would Love to Do Over the Summer:

1. Read a plethora of books that I actually want to read as opposed to required energy.

2. Tan, just get tan.

3. Spend as much time as possible outside.

4. My new invention, urban. hiking.

5. Wear a dress once a week, I can be just as fabulous as Carrie Bradshaw, it will just take a little bit of work.

6. Learn to cook some delicious recipes.

7. Of course, loose weight, it's always on the list.

8. Eat at places and do things in Rochester that I haven't done yet.

9. Concerts, concerts, concerts....

10. Cut hair, get doubles, get tattoo.

There will be more to come. I'm in limbo with my life right now with only a faint direction of where I'm going, so I'm pretty sure you can expect a couple really hopeful blogs in the future.